dear god

Dear god,
I do not know what to ask for but I do know what I don't want, I don't want to hurt anymore, I don't want to be angry anymore, I don't want to be in pain, I don't want to cry anymore, I don't want to feel empty, I don't want to be cold inside, I don't want to be upset, I don't want to be sad, I don't want to believe that I will forever live with this hole in my heart, I don't want to feel like Im dying inside. I'm not suicidal but I just can't live like this anymore.
Sincerely,
Me