I thought I was over it and was actually working towards moving on but I was Wrong. I am stuck in a low place where I see no end in sight. I can't see a happiness for me. I can see smiles but I know it will always linger in my head. I hate feeling like this. It's so easy to put on smiles and nobody car or notice. I cry in private because no one listens anyways. They all see the tears in my eyes and just move on. It's easier to do it all privately so I cannot be mad for those that ignore and instead just blame myself for shutting myself off from the world.
My emotions have never gotten me to succeed so perhaps there is no need for them. Or at least a need to show them.
