I love my sister but....

I love my sister but I am ready to leave her behind as we continue our journey. I've been having to follow her and she is a horrible driver I have noticed. Since I do not know my way around here in Utah I have been tailing her and in the process she has caused me to run 4 red lights, cut off numerous people, and she drives live she's making a basket (weaving in and out of traffic). She also is Ms Grumpy pants if she has not eaten. Ughh! I have had to play referee between her and my cousin. The girls and I got to ditch her for about a half hour and that was actually very fun. I love her but I am ready to leave.

Characters Welcome

So here I am on vacation, I feel that I sort of get to escape my problems. I know they are still there but I least I don't have to think of them often. I am more thinking about the ax murderer we are going to encounter on our trip. The girls and I enjoy these characters we meet in different states. we find that sometimes its just another world out there. We once stopped for a potty break at this convenient store that we just knew had been in some horror film. I remember my daughter looking at me and saying, "I can hold it". Other times my girls have enjoyed some rest stops so much they would like to include it on our destination map again. Either way we enjoy ourselves as we reminiscent on the stories.

Park City Utah

The girls went on this go cart roller coaster

they first went across the bridge and up the hill 

and then twists and turns 

that has them returning across the bridge again

Passive Aggressive

I am being passive aggressive today and I am enjoying it! :0)

Getting ready to leave

Today I leave on my Cross country tour. Due to unforeseen circumstances I do not know if my husband will be accompanying me which kinda sucks because then we did not have to rent a car and I don't think I would have planned this trip. Anyways the car is mostly packed but we are keeping one whole bag for electronics, IPODS, MP3's, laptops, DS's, car chargers, power cords. There are a lot of things in there. How connected we are in life but it keeps us entertained. I remember trying to do road trips without those luxuries, it sucked. I personally don't want to hear fighting (ha who am I kidding), moooooooommmmmm (yeah sometimes I get tired of them talking to me), and I'm bored. It will be a fun trip, it will be a fun trip, it will be a fun trip (I wonder if I click my heals 3 times if it will happen).

2 things

2 things have basically turned my world upside down. 2 things have caused me so much emotional pain that I don't know how to continue to live. I feel like I am frozen in time. I feel as if the pain just gets deeper and deeper and I slowly try to put a wall around it so that its contained. What sucks about these 2 things is that I am embarrassed and ashamed of both of them, though I did not cause either one. I have never been one to air my dirty laundry in public, so instead I suffer and grieve silently and alone.

I'll put on a happy face in public and I'll continue but life sucks right now! I just want to lie in bed all day and hide. I don't want to face the world. I wish I could open up and tell someone but I just can't expose myself or my family like that.

I'm starting a trip on Wednesday

I'm starting a country tour on Wednesday. I will post pictures of the beautiful scenery that I encounter through out the country. For the 1st part I will be traveling alone with my 4 daughters (wish me luck that I don't drop them off in the middle of nowhere) and then my husband will join us for the 2nd leg of our trip.