15 states in 3 weeks

Arizona, Nevada, Utah, Wyoming, Colorado, Kansas, oklahoma, Tennessee, north Carolina, South Carolina, Georgia, Alabama, Louisiana, Texas and then back home in CALIFORNIA!!!!

Finally I am home, my bed felt great last night. I pulled my clothes out of my creaser and not some bag, I finally have some choices in my wardrobe. I missed california, I missed the weather. I welcome the cool air today.

This is my house. That is another thing I am happy about. I can do, watch, cook whatever I want. this is Awesome.

On the road again

So I left Texas with 2 extra children and left one behind. I brought my 2 brothers because one was just itching to get out of the house and the other just needs breathing space, I hope that my mom is not offended because I brought the boys with me. I keep my mouth shut about so many things but this time it was impossible for me to ignore things that I would consider borderline abusive. They both want to stay with me permanently but one is under 18 so dad said he had to go back... I don't know if I will release him. I just didn't like the atmosphere in the home, but it was more than that. She tried to give me a guilt trip about putting ideas in the boys heads. I calmly explained that I felt what I was doing was a good thing and therefore she was not going to blame me for them wanting to leave. It was not an easy decision but one I felt I had to make.

Theres no place like home

Tomorrow I start my trek home. It's been a long 3 weeks. I have enjoyed every bit of it. Even the parts that made me cry and frustrated me. I will be coming home with 2 extra bodies. My brothers will be joining me for the summer. I will have to drive back in August to drop them off, so I get to see my family again. this has been an eye opening trip. Discovered new things and have learned to appreciate so much more. I am happy even through all the depressing posts. I truly am happy.

decision

As if my life could not get any harder I am faced with new decisions to make. Is it right to say my life is so hard  at this and therefore I'll just let everyone else's problems be their own. Or do I have responsibility when I see a wrong to do what I can to change it. Everyone might answer that it's my responsibility to right any wrongs I see but what if making something right might jeopardize my relationship with my mother, father, and sisters.
Can stand for what I know to be true, can I continue to allow bad things to happen. Is it easier to focus on others problems than my own. I need to pray about this